Raisom Detre(Reason to live)



Stark silence envelopes each corner I pass
The echoes chant along - resonant sounds,
Along the path behind and the lights ahead
I see no meaning - no illumine cast


I curse the skies for the stormy seas,
I scream out to the air for winds of peace
Deflated, deranged I introspect days gone by
Only reams of pain did they forecast


I lay back and stared at the black sky,
No stars - no light to show me my path
Why such sorrow and failure drenched my past
Left with no energy at hand to make each day pass


Anger within - was my only source of solace
An uncontrolled flame by only fury led,
For as the orange skies, bear witness to me
I wait quiet, a quest for vengeance within


As moments turn to hours and then to weeks
The sky turns black and thence cold with ease
Me - my voice lost amidst the gale of disease
The disease of hatred that doth breed within


As I stood there, a tingling laugh pierced the air
Hardly audible - more like an echo of a thought,
A shiver ran down my spine - making my mind freeze
But waking me up - now I was rapt with unease

Fore I realize myself, I start running wild,
The cold wind brushes by playing with the song
I trip on a rock tumble and thus twist my leg
Dragging on I limp in search of the voice - The dream

The voice now more clear was so clean and pure
Making my soul flutter, more than I could endure
I crashed down held there by an unknown force
So light, yet strong - the force behind the voice


And soon my breath passes out to a void patch
I feel the fire burn out within my fluttering heart
My quest - my reason to live quenched part by part
I give in to the force, the voice and the warmth


The warmth ? I wonder as my eyes flutter open
Have I not lost the one thing in my life,
My anger, my vengeance my meaning of life ?
As I stand up I find my heart - a candle of peace


I move slowly now all confused at first
But as I slowly move on - I do realize
The sky was still black, cold wind did fly by
But I felt not the cold or the pain by my side


I stared across and found a new shining star
And enlightenment dawned of true Raisom Detre



3rd April 2006
Manas R Moothedath

 My Quest for the star!

There are times when I stare into the empty sky and wonder as to whether is a limit to the wide expanse to the world that surrounds us? When I was a kid I used to love cycling, and I used to whizz past every patch of land I could find in the middle of the night! Yeah! Night time was my time.

Once I was riding really fast I saw that the stars were a fast moving array of confusion, one seemingly connected to another like and intricate weave of white light.

Years have passed and today when I stand the same way and stare up to the stars, there are no stars up there....only an empty expanse stared down onto me. For I have come to realize over these years that in my haste to do so many things in so little a time, I have somewhere lost my way and moved or rather drifted into a world where there are no stars. And it soon became clearer to me as to where my star had disappeared off to...I had forgotten the essense of who I was, the reason for my existence was lost amongst the dark black tresses of ignorance.

Then along my path where I lay lost confused and parched, came a cool breeze, one that I was unaccostomed to, one that I hadn't felt for a long long time...

Hmm...I wonder and turn back trying to see beyond the breeze into the flicker of light behind the curtain of smoke. And there slowly but steadily in the dark black sky did flicker - My Shining star