Phoenix

The silence - pindrop, prods at me softly (8:20PM)

Ticking me gently, I shake off my revery…
Try do I, to hide behind a curtain of deceit
But alas - life dictates judgement, inclement


I shut my eyes tight, try hard to look within
The strength to accept, forsake deceptive pride
I could trick the countless perceptions outside
But no more -  can I commit to my ego, perjure

I am, I'm certain not much worse for my kind…
Ask I - Is redemption too harsh? Judgement fair?

The answer is clear, before the question asked
What stick do you use to measure thy deeds?

You are - no , I am - what choices leave me to be
Choices of ghosts past, already entwined with fate 
Seeps in realization, for the only residual choice… 
Accept trepid days bygone or embittered turn a blind eye 


This crossroad of life, I quickly find - holds familiar foul
For this not be the first time, fate did profess this sight
But I sense a difference, within - desire, a desperate grasp
I am armed this time - with the sense of loss, true cognition


I know what I must, but again - still obscure lies the path
Muster the courage I must,  to survive this path - uncouth
The hardest step in my sight is the one of true induction
To skin oneself to bare bones and absolve - the past


Liberate the little child inside,  who still weeps cloaked
Let flow the warm tears as they cleanse the decay
Hunt down as he flees, the two-faced charlatan…
Ignite his lies, with the soft white flames of hope inside


As I watch the gleam in his eye, the fading malaise
He crumbles and falls - a puddle of soft grey ashes.
I await now - for a glimpse, a semblance of the soul
Await for the inception, ascend from the embers (9:44 PM)

Perspective

I wake up - my breath a little short (9:04AM)

I know as I look up - what comes next

My eyes ache, ever so slightly 

The head throbbing, sleep overdose

My feet touch the cold floor - it pushes back

A quiver slips down my spine, instant unease

I stand in the shower, warm water tricking down

Can't shake the unease, sense of deja vu overdose

I smile softly, nay not joy, not happiness but a grin

A cold, forced glare of teeth that shone eerily 

For I'd had enough of the monotony, the pretence

It was time to change, break the comfort of 'known'

I look around me at the life that I have ended up with… 

The seemingly bright shades begin to fade - reveal 

What lies beneath the bright paint, the real deal… 

I shake my head, clearing the sounds of the bells… 

My eyes flit across all the things that I had deemed worthy

The brightest of lights, lose colour by the second, slowly, surely

A deep breath takes away the smell of roasted coffee, fresh bread

I move on, towards the tangent of my sight away from the diminish

Time slows, for what seems like days - I walk on… determined

I feel the fatigue catching up with me, sense of loss draining me 

The whispers continue now, fainter by the second.. sight gives away

I fall softly to the floor - feel the weakening of my senses as I give way

My fingers sift through the moist soil, as I push myself up… 

A deep breath leaves me with the smell of the earth - the ground

Words echoes out to me from the dark in a faint soft whisper

"You only feel what you truly have - in a state of eternal loss" 

I smile softly now… this time a glimmer in the eyes… 

And I knew at that moment, that its going to be alright (9:26AM)

30 Dec 2012

Rhythm

She walked in uncertain, soft heard thudding
The roaring energy within caught her unawares...
Her nervousnous started to peel away slow...
As her toes began to play games with the beat...

Her eyes swallowed in the depths of the room....
As spiral of lights flirt with soft hidden shadows
The rhythm went on to claim her uncertainty...
Unknown to herself....she gave way to the tunes...

The night drew on... Seconds bled into hours...
The music grew louder...harsher to the faint ear...
But with each loud thud... It added to the mood...
Now she moved effortlessly keeping up with ease...

She grinned with glee... Her expression glassy
Unaware... Uncaring... Disillusioned... Complete...
She'd broken free from what she knew now now..
With a loud sigh... She fell softly ... And then Lay still...

Soft rays of dawn filtered through curtains....
The sun began to hum to its usual tune...
The thuds grew softer... Almost faint...
And gave way to the poignant silence...

Sigh...

The leaves crumble softly... Crushing resigned...
A whisper so soft... It'd take the faintest of hearts...
To hear... The pain... The agony... Of life lived long...
The sigh.... Resigned to that last moment in defeat

Whispers....

The sounds softly tingle my ears as i become aware
Of all the myriad kaliodosope of sonoric imstances...
Consume my active senses... Blocking out the other 4
As the echoes then slow down... Compartmentalize...