Amour

The golden rays of the setting sun, (10:47 AM)

Lit up her auburn hair bright

The spectacle reflected off coffee-brown eyes

Fore the horizon swallowed the sun with her heart,



Twas hardly a month ago when she

Had her life stormed by a peaceful gale

That swept her away, caught her unaware,

Was it love? That had left her at sea?



For you see it wasn’t her desire to be,

Involved in a relation she couldn’t foresee

He appeared out of the blue, refreshingly fresh,

Making her heart play tunes she hadn’t foreknown



She knew not what had sprung betwixt them,

It wasn’t a form of affection – driven by urge

Nor was there a need for the word said you see

Had there grown a new bond – complete, tacit



Those countable hours they spent engrossed in time,

She knew not how but he knew all of her needs

Soft words, reluctant smiles abridged all the gaps,

The moments faded away, each special in kind



The days slipped away at an elusive pace,

Unaware of the world, a tranquil union of life,

Before the feeling could hold, the wind had changed,

Its tune sent forth askew, a non- resonant vide



Just like the gale that had changed her light,

Had it given her sight or taken it away?

For before comprehension of the change could she,

Did the moment leave her side and so did he



Now, as she stood with the moon rising to the sky,

Silver rays caressing her body lifting her soul,

She felt energy lift above and scatter apart

Leaving a spark in her eyes igniting the night



Stood there did she, looking beyond,

Her skin shining bright, so pure and serene

She felt in her heart a warm iridescent glow,

Hidden in she, lay soft glimpses of he (11:40 AM)

Void Thought
26th Oct 2006

Derailed

The drops larger now, pattered much louder,(4:23 PM)
Each droplet with more vigor did drop forth...
The shadows loomed large, across his path,
Reminding him what lay behind, gone past

The gale grew stronger as trees screeched in protest,
Gray skies bore witness to the lonely soul move forth
Empty streets greeted his arrival, vacant and drenched
Accompanied by none other than echoes of his breath

In the far distance he saw the first sight of human life,
Sounds in teeming resonance, blurry images flicked by
He dragged on slower now, breathing slower each step
Moved closer in to witness children at play, passing time

Unaware of the rain, the gloom, the shadows all across,
Engrossed in the moment of joy, unaware of the past,
They raced across in the rain, faces gleaming with joy,
But alas, they knew not, the clock ticks and so shall they

Somewhere is his sore body a little pang was ignited,
Reminding him of his self, of relationships left by,
He knew that there was reason, factors of elusive play,
Overshadowing the child which dormant in him did lay

He reached across the street, next to a cold wooden bench,
On which did he then lay, shadowed by ghosts of his past,
As he closed his eyes, the shadows surrounded with an urge
Swallowing his callous self, watched over by the silent rain(5:01 PM)

Void thought
21st Oct 2006

Pretence

Pretence

I looked back at the voices fading away,(9:34 PM)
Dragging along the path ahead of me,
Was there a meaning in all these lies?
Is there a life, amidst mindless pretence?

I find no meaning, no trace of life,
Tired of lying about how I now feel,
Tired of all games with hidden deceit,
Sick of the lies that I ensue on forth...

What’s the baseless point in acting all nice?
Paint a plastic smile across an abstract face
Laugh at humor so dry it makes me choke...
I wonder if this is fun...then what am I?

The winds have changed, time moved on
I stare blind at these faces around me
Act as though they make sense, but why?
Why lie? Why try? When it’s all a LIE?

The patterns of condescending lives
Stretched across times gone by
Sometimes merge, sometimes cross
But mostly, they just lie – Lie and LIE!

The strain is too strong, the lies too far gone
Air too thick with the stench of pretence,
My breath stops for an iota, making me choke,
Then I realize that I need take it no more

For now I have the fire, the desire
The energy the feed, the force
Need not the comfort of false ties
Moved on have I, have you, and has LIFE!!!(9:45 PM)

Void Thought
20th Oct 2006

Eclipse

The flash across my face (11:51 AM)
Consumed the pain beside
And as I stood, clear mind
At last I see what’s right

Sight fades slowly first
Making me think back
Think of all lies I’d said
As images flitter across

One of them sneered at me
A different sign then I saw
For there was I self-conceited,
False pretences all across

I saw filth across the world
Celluloid – did I then call
It took time for me to see
In me celluloid I did find

I walked across the plains I saw
Pointing out all the little flaws
Jeering at the filthy world
And the purity of my sancta kind

And finally today I see truth redefined
I see all filth I saw – took it by my side
And as I saw the final, images flit across
I slipped into a pool of red – some good I’d DONE AT LAST!!!!!(12 pm)

Void Thought
27th sep 2006

False Pretences

Why show me all these pictures (11:31 AM)
So vague, concealed in lies,
Why show me a world not for me,
That can never set me free…


Why make me see the light around,
When to darkness I am bound…
Why play these games with my life?
When devoid of an aim I ride…

Tired am I of these games, blistered are my feet.
I try to smile and play along, hoping it shall cease,
But whilst I lay drenched in elusive void sights…
Somehow, the darkness cheats – shows what’s right.

I go about proclaiming greatness of some kind,
While behind these lies – dances fear, eating on my mind,
The flimsy cover blown apart, I find – to nothing did I bind,
For you see – What I am, is absolute incomplete defined.

Yet again you play with me ruthlessly unkind,
Thus in this race does my mind, fall far behind
Hang onto the thread of life, knowing from the first,
I understand cuts on my feet are meant to quench your thirst…

All the blankness makes complete sense.
For I see the truth – now all dense
Normalcy for a ‘freak’ like me,
Just false pretences meant to be (11:43 AM)

Void Thought
27th Sep 2006

Celluloid…

The milling crowd disperse at night,(5:40 AM)
I walk along the path staring about,
A lost look smeared across my face,
An inner sense – Something’s not right,


I stand there again as the sun does rise,
Monotonous as always, the same old sight,
Then, life moves like it always does…
For you see, here’s where the cliché lies.


Each face seems bright radiant, aglow
Every lucid movement across my path,
The plastic smiles, redundant signs,
I stand, unnoticed watching life flow…


I wonder what rests beneath the sheen,
Under this flimsy sheet of pretence and lies,
Wonder where this path could lead,
Ponder what the signboards could mean…


Pretty soon, I’d put them all on paper,
All the flaws of all the ones around,
I am sick of these – conceited souls,
I stay away on ground that’s safer…


Then, land ahoy! I saw the end,
All my effort was to get its worth,
For I saw the path in front of me lay,
It came to an end across the bend


Smirking at the fools left behind,
I rushed along, across to the end,
Full of ecstatic joy, I go around,
Expecting to find peace for my mind,


But alas, around the fateful bend,
I find a huge mirror, right at the end,
And in it a young face did I see,
A tremor of shock did it through me send…


Staring back at me was a conceited face,
Complacent, plastic sneering at life,
And I was left thus, wondering aloud,
In the quest to be not…have I become not?????(6:32 AM)

Void Thought
September 19, 2006

Wake up

Wake up – See life as it withers away,(4:58 AM)
As you lay asleep – sweet dreams inside,
Wake up and see, now have your say
Fore the power of sight does fade away…

Look beyond the horizons you see,
And fly past the fixations beneath..
Erase all the lies that have set you free
Stop lying to yourself about what you do see…

Don’t bask in the glory of false belief,
Let go of the past that holds you to be…
Don’t be fooled by the calmness and relief,
That seems to come on to recede belief…


Look into the mirror of light from converging skies,
Feel life in your veins, each figment you breathe
There is no path easy to the abode of the gods.
Stop looking for detours in the vastness of skies…

Wipe away the tears as they trickle down,
Aye! Drench not yourself in pitiful drops…
On the face of fate, don’t engrave a frown,
Coz, the deeper you go, the farther is down…


Wake up – let go new life deep inside
Lets sparks fly forth and lay illusions aside,
Life’s what you make it so make it thence last…
Open golden doors to the soul and then look inside…(5:26 AM)

Void Thought
18th Sep 2006

Through the door she walked …

A face did deflect the moon’s dark rays,
As she flew across the horizon – in a daze,
Transfixed in shock, consumed by fear,
In complete disarray did her mind flee.


The moon gave way to a bright blue sky
But somewhere within, she didn’t accept this lie,
For her mind was traitor, a cheat in disguise
Waiting - an error to consume and watch her cry…


The dreams into nightmares did turn beside,
Consuming all saneness that within did reside
The stench of doubt and the sound of faith,
Did create waves in her soul – a resounding kind.


As she fell from one world to one of a different kind,
Did she look around – uncertain, for an exit from the mind,
Not strength did she lack, but rather conviction inside
To fight her own mind and let go – move on with the tide…


As she flew across the blue that engorged the mind,
She found no reason to try, for you see she was blind,
Blinded by the cocoon that enveloped her psyche,
Turning her from a rebel to an unwilling aide,


As the games went on did the mind slowly tire,
Thence did she act upon a voice of a different kind,
As the whisper came through telling her the way,
She nodded slowly, an expression of uneasy glee…


At the next passage she fell – breaking the bond,
Thus the mind was ripped right free of her soul
As she moved on tentatively new vigor beside…
Embracing freedom from sanity as through the door she walked….
15 Sep 2006

Deception

Deception



Once upon a time eons ago(11:30 AM)
There was a fair land – pure and true
Blessed lands were they, by a higher force
An aura of peace did it seem to hold

The blue extended from the ends of the world
The green leaves chattered, swaying their souls
Breaths of moist air, coursed all through the lands
Life layered above over an expanse of golden land

Twas’ amongst this land that I once lived
A child with lively, twinkling bright eyes
With this sacred land did I share a bond
A tacit agreement wrapped up in love

The wind – my best friend held all my secrets within
Blue skies with their expanse drank up my soul
Green leaves on the cue were like whispering pals
And then came love, the soft moist golden land

I pranced about with the wind day in and day out
With every breath that I took brightened my face
My skin tingled from soft caresses of the wind
Their jokes left me rolling about – half crazy

But as the days went by the breeze became warm
The leaves drooped down and then grew brown
The sly although blue – now simply and expanse
The warm earth turned dry and cold as life spun

I was shocked, confused and irritated at heart
For I couldn’t see how friends could be thus
Hard did I try to make amends and to realize,
But alas! Was left each night – empty hands beside

Tears drenched me for the sorrow was too great
My friends, my love, my faith and my life betrayed
They moved on with life, and left me far behind,
To lay wretched alone, soiled and embittered by fate

Soon seasons moved through and colors tuned by
And with time dried my tears and pain inside
For a brutal witness was I to life’s deception
A deception by form of friendship and love

Now, as the sun starts a day and shines with his might
The rays leave me unfazed like the rock inside(2:35 PM)
4th Aug 2006